Not even now, a week before his Bar Mitzvah, is Wizard applying himself. I get daily messages from the rabbi stating how Wizard hasn’t studied this or prepared that. The kid is so selfish, and he respects no one. He does no work.
This morning I was thinking about saying a few words at the Kiddush luncheon next week. Now, all I feel toward the child is shame and disgust. I don’t want to be near him or even look at him. What a failure.